Deceive The Pain

Tonight I look into my eyes
Just trying to...
Find the connection, the words and the will
and the sense and the beat of my heart
How can I
With all these traps
Keep recalling your eyes and rejecting my...
Way to deceive the pain

Where are you trying to find the way?

What if I erase all of you, from my side
Pull off the sheets of that part of my life

I want to be heartfelt
I want to stop the oppression
Of trying to climb out of my fucking errors
And trying to hide my stupid indecision

And I don't want to forget a word from you
And I don't want to forget any part of you
I would rather carry this burden
Than break away any memory of you

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot
The World forgetting, by the world forgot
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind
Each prayer accepted and each wish resigned

I want to feel the pain
I want to feel the hate
I don't want to deny
I want to feel the pride
To be strong enough
To carry on with my rights and my wrongs

Life's a game to lose
It's hard to face that
I need to call your name, MOTHER! FATHER!