Sinister

Every time I turn back to pretend I misheard the lie
I see that crooked smile in the corner of my blinded eyes
What was I thinking when this ignorant tyrant type of speaking
Seemed to be enough to deliberately stop my damn instincts

Yet it consumes me
Pursues me
Endearing
How can I stop it
Avoid it
Control it

When the sirens ring and distance is calling
I see myself burning
The misery peaks I fade away

What’s the foundation for your so called wisdom
I cannot dig deep enough
Since the panic of exposure
Makes the soil concrete hard
Why was I daring to ask
Eternal silence will last

I tried to embrace the quiet
But it felt so fucking violent
Where the glances once used to meet
Is now a distance that I cannot reach

And yet it consumes me
Pursues me
Endearing
How can I stop it
Avoid it
Control it

When the sirens ring and distance is calling
I see myself burning
The misery peaks I fade away

There is a barrier that no one of us wants to climb
And still we get the taste of this bittersweet defiance
I cannot stand this silence
Now it's time to deny it
I can't take it
The sirens ring and distance is calling
Sometimes it might be best to ignore it
And stand the fuck up for yourself
Get this shit out of your damn head

When the sirens ring and distance is calling
I back out and see myself burning
The misery peaks I fade away
(The sirens ring)
The distance is calling
(It‘s calling calling)
I see myself burning
(I‘m burning burning)
The misery peaks I fade away