Autumn (I Wish I Was Better)

I feel my soul come alive when I watch the leaves die
But I'm still turning gold from the glow that I saw in your eyes
Writing letters to a ghost of who you once were
I plagiarize every line, 'cause I can't remember

Now I miss every friend I never found
Nicotine and a knack for let-downs
I've been trying to find the words to say
To get you back around

I never had a chance to get it right
(Noo-o-o)
But I never tried
I can't find the words I wanna write
To tell you that I'll be better next time

You felt your heart come alive when you watched our love die
(Whoa-oa, whoa-oa)
And now I'm left feeling cold in the void that you laid in my life
(Whoa-oa, whoa-oa)

Now I miss every friend I never found
Caffeine and a knack for let-downs
I've been trying to find the words to say
To keep you all around
(To keep you all around)

I never had a chance to get it right
(Noo-o-o)
But I never tried
I gotta find the words I wanna write
To tell you that I'll be better next time

Come close, I'll keep my distance
Can't hurt people you don't let in
I want to be something you still miss
Oh God, I wish that I was better than this