This War Called Home

I cannot find
A way to figure out
Where I am

Seems just like home
But feels like a storm
A cold so freezing

I've been trying, crying

I've been a liar, I've been a fool
But I always tried
To build around me
A world so tight
And swimm against an emerging flood

I shut my eyes
Believe in something
I realize is made of nothing
I know it's time
To leave behind me
This war called home

How crystal-clear
The rain is whispering
Her song to keep me away from tears

I feel I long
To run further from
All of these wasted years

I've been waiting, aching