Haunt

You still haunt me like you used to
You're the weight on my shoulders
But it's different than before
Because I've gotten older

I watched your shadow roam around the room all night
Dimly lit by the cloud covered moonlight
I prayed in silence that I might get some sleep
Cause the bags under my eyes
Expressed the words I couldn't speak

I saw your ghost out of the corner of my eye
Darting past the window frame
And I still have that feeling in the corner of my mind
Maybe I fucked up and kept the words I should've said

You still haunt me like you used to
You're the weight on my shoulders
But it's different than before
Because I've gotten older
You still haunt me like you used to
And it's the same now
Hold me under
Inhale water
Watch me drown

So I'll stay inside
And waste every day away
The sun was never meant for me
But maybe now I'll finally get some sleep
I rest my tired eyes to the sound of exploding arteries

And for as long as I can remember
We've kept our fingers perfectly entwined
Your apparition hand in mine
It was cold
But at least it was constant
When nothing else in my life was

And I've watched all the color fade away
And the knots in my stomach take their place
I wish I could speak up
But with you there's only silence
There's only silence
I'm so afraid of the silence
Why can't I hear anything?
Why can't I feel anything?

You still haunt me like you used to
You're the weight on my shoulders
But it's different than before
Because I've gotten older
You still haunt me like you used to
And it's the same now
Hold me under
Inhale water
Watch me drown