...But I Pretend I'm a Beginner (feat. GBSN & John Silkie)

Everything
Is not what it seems (not what it seems)
The price we pay
For living our dreams (living our dreams)

I'm losing composure
Can't wait till it's over
My mind is a boulder
That's breaking my neck

The double-edged sword
Has me caught in a headstorm
But I won't quit now
I can rest when I'm dead

Can I catch a breath?
Blasphemy
I'll trade my sanity
All for some vanity
Let it be my death
From within
Life's a glass prison
Where no one can sin

Crack under pressure
(Or turn into a diamond)
Stuck here so long
(I don't know where my mind is)
My creative thoughts
(Have been stuck in confinement)
Give you what you want
(I'm always compliant)

Everything
That we love
Is temporary
Please remember me
When I'm dead and
I'm buried

My mind just
Wants to be free (wants to be free)
I pray one day
I'll be at peace (I'll be at peace)

One the other side
They swear grass is always greener
Do I sound ungrateful
I'll change my demeanor
I'll paint you a picture
So that you can see it cleaner
If you think I'm the problem
Then look in the mirror

Can I catch a breath?
Blasphemy
I'll trade my sanity
All for some vanity
Let it be my death
From within
Life's a glass prison
Where no one can sin

(Ooh)
Day after day
It just wears me out (drags me down)
Sleepless nights
Always filled with doubt

Maybe I'm masochistic
I am madly in love with it
And I can't seem to get enough

Night after night
Sanity's on fumes (it's a trip)
Take it all
I'm addicted to my doom

This life is so sadistic
I am madly in love with it
And I can't seem to get enough (thoughts)

The spotlight is blinding (thoughts)
My skull is confining (my thoughts)
The spotlight is blinding (thoughts)
My skull is confining my (thoughts)

My brain starts to rot (thoughts)
I did everything (thoughts)
To claw my way to the top (thoughts)

I sifted through (thoughts)
All of the snakes and the leeches (thoughts)
I poured blood sweat and tears (thoughts)
For years just to reach this (thoughts)