Anymore

Sometimes I question if I’ve got the guts to keep waking up
So I hide so no one see me on the ledge when I'm about to jump
It’s embarrassing, preaching how to save when I'm perishing

Oh, how I dream of better days and nights when I'm not so sick
But somehow, I guess I'm not meant to heal, I'm not meant to live
Cause my life’s like therapy
I gotta pay someone to be there for me

Cause if I don’t, I'm alone
I can’t do this anymore
No, I can’t do this anymore
I fight these words like I'm at war
Can someone find a cure?
Cause I can’t do this anymore
I can’t, I can’t
No I can’t do this

Wait, yes I can
Gotta be a man
Gotta hide the hurt, cause what’s worse? Losing me or them?
No matter what I do, I lose regardless
I feel so heartless
That’s why I'm always wrestling with who I am, and everybody’s watching me

Don’t wanna let em down, but I
I can’t do this anymore
No, I can’t do this anymore, no
And I'm not the one you’re looking for
Got one hand on the door
I can’t do this anymore
I can’t, I can’t, no I can’t do this

I don’t even know what I'm fighting for
Healing for myself? Or my childhood scars?
Living for a dream’s how a nightmare starts
Cause this ain’t life, it’s just surviving
I don’t even know what I'm fighting for
Healing for myself? Or my childhood scars?
Living for a dream’s how a nightmare starts

I can’t do this anymore
I can’t do this anymore
I'm fucking sick, I'm fucking sore
Don’t care if I'm adored
I can’t do this anymore