Near Life Experience

If I showed my hand shaking like a leaf,
You might not understand, but I bet you'd believe
This bat is inside, crawling around
The cobwebs in my mind that I try to drown out.

You said I look like a ghost, man I almost was.
You said I need to let go, quit chasing that buzz,
That picture in time, frozen like ice
That girls keep repeating, beating me down to size.

Well maybe I'm blind, just throwing darts in the dark.
I didn't get what I want, I got what I need.
Man, it hurts like hell down here on my knees.
Is this where I end, or is this where we begin?

The night is my friend, I blend in with the best:
The vampires, the crooks, the felons and the rest.
Now we can pretend that we really care less,
And act like we love what we really detest.

Well maybe I'm blind, just throwing darts in the dark.
I didn't get what I want, I got what I need.
Man it hurts like hell down here on my knees.
Is this where I end, or is this where we begin?

Make this go away, I'm begging please--
There's little life left here for me to bleed.
Is this where I end, or is this where we begin?

I'm looking up but I'm feeling down,
Since I'm cutting these corners, was cutting me down to size.

Am I losing control or losing my mind?
I know for a fact I'm losing my last place to hide.

Well maybe I'm blind, just throwing darts in the dark.
I didn't get what I want, I got what I need.
Man it hurts like hell down here on my knees.
Is this where I end, or is this where we begin?

My pulse is racing, I can't catch my breath.
This near-life experience scared me to death.
Is this where I end, or is this where we begin?

Or is this where we begin?